Condition

This post contains few photos that show how cheerful i am. But i've got to warn you about something: don't trust my happy expressions. Regardless the nice moment i've had with my partners (this photo taken on my best friend's birthday), i actually down and stuck right now. What's causing this? Here it comes the story.....

I got quite much spare time this semester. Most of my time are filled with conspiracy between dizzy and stress lately, and they keep me away from anything fun. I guess i can blame on my thesis. I can't even fully enjoy anything. When you got quite much spare time and when you got bunch of nice friends to hang out with but you can't even enjoy it because of stress, then you should check yourself. There's must be something wrong, and i can say there's something wrong with me now. As a senior student, thesis and graduate from college are my current obsessions. I'm almost 22 and since i'm still using my parents' money for the sake of 'struggle' in this cruel world, i can't be proud of it. It's actually very embarrassing. People can't call me kid now because of my age, and i have to show the world that i'm no longer deserve to be called as a kid. Each young-adults got to fulfill their own responsibility, so do i. Graduate from college is one way to fulfill my responsibility towards my parents, i think. At least i can make them proud and no longer using their money afterwards. So here i am, trying so hard to beat a thing so called, thesis. Wish me another luck, pals.... 

*sigh, i can't even make a nice closing.. :(