Quick Update

So many stories to update in this blog, so little time. Na ah. I lied. Actually I'm just extremely lazy to start writing again. How about I upload few of my favorite photos from my previous trip to Malang instead? I hope you don't mind. :)

Feelin' Blur?

Last weekend was definitely a reunion weekend. It was so nice to meet people you used to see frequently in the past. Reminisced about the good old memories and of course snapped so many pics just like the pic above. The pic above actually consists by some blur pics from my phone and (surprisingly) Google Plus combined it as one pic, making it a brand new and cool GIF. It really fascinates me how technology has been contributing a great help for my life. I'm deeply amazed.

Anyway, I'm going to upload lotsa pics and write less story in this post. I hope you wouldn't mind and keep enjoying the photos in this little nest for a mess. :)

A short update about my life: nowadays, my day seems blur just like these photos. To be exact, life gives me nothing but anxiety. I'm currently waiting for a precious announcement that keeps delaying again and again. I'm starting to get tired because of it. Please send me a pocketful of goodie good luck, dear fellas :'(

Portrait

Gonna Be Isolated

4 more days and i'm gonna be isolated in some kind like sub-urban place around Central Java for approximately 1 month. Excited and afraid at the same time because i'm about to be gathered together along with students from another faculties. Approximately one month with strangers? That's the point that frightening me enough. Meet new people always makes me afraid i guess. But i think all the bad thoughts are gonna be disappear soon since i knew that my partners are cooperative enough...

So, what are we gonna do there? Well, we're gonna arrange various programs in order to "develop" potential sides of the village. Some kind like providing service with counseling. It needs a very well preparation and the preparation really spent my time. Hence, i got no time to take any outfit photos (oh well, another excuse! :D) and i put my instagram photos instead. I've downloaded the application months ago and fallin in love directly with the effects! Such a cool application to use. :)

By the way, how's life lately, pals? Don't hesitate to tell me..

A word isn't enough

I try to see each problem through your glasses. But i still couldn't find any reason why we are separated by the differences. I'm still thinking that we are such a great partner. Match in every parts. But why do we still hanging on the same stupid problem called 'ego'?

I know i can't easily change you to be a better person and i know you're thinking the same way too. I also know that every problems come whenever they want to come and they always come with a bad timing too.. I've been learning about it since approximately one year ago yet i still couldn't find the best way to solve any problem. All i can do is improving the sense of emphaty so i can feel what you feel, see what you see, hear what you hear. But, why i still feel that you haven't feel satisfied with all the things i've been done?

I keep trying to not to think anything negative about you. It's hard though.. Sometimes i feel insecure. It's because you seem happy with all the things that make your life more dangerous. Why? I still don't get the answer about many questions. And it compounded with bunch of new questions, show up in the wrong time. 

I admit that in several times i said 'i had enough with this'. Feels like i wanna go to another world where we don't have to hurt each other. But i just couldn't do it. There's a power which says to me to stay hold on. Like you said 'Behind the clouds is the star still shining'. Yea i keep that words stay in my mind. You've got me realized that few questions just don't need to be answered and i keep it as a color of the life. The grey one for sure.

Thanks for making me realized that world isn't only about happy or smile. You taught me about sadness and cry. And i'm thanking for that. Neither blaming nor being angry with you. Sorry for all the bad things i've ever done to you.

And i just wanna say something to you.

'I want you to be my life'

:)

you can see the whole photos here

● WIENA ●